Blessed To Be Being Year Anniversary

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Photography and words by Emily Nardini. Model – Eski (@eskigrams)

November is the month to be thankful. We are thankful for friends, families, our success or even just being alive. November is a month to express why you are thankful and what you are thankful for. Well, I am blessed to be being

I am free. Weird saying that, right? Why wouldn’t I be free? At one point in my life, I wasn’t. I was controlled. I was physically and verbally abused by my past relationship. For a long period of time. It’s funny because November 2016, I was finally free. I woke up for the first time in that 4 years. My mind re-birthed. It was in that day, in that moment my self love was a concrete rose. However, I had to pick the pieces of my life back up again and back then, it was shattered glass

I would be lying if I said it was easy. It was genuinely like being re-born again and learning to walk, talk then fend for yourself. I did not want to settle for just healing myself, I wanted the biggest fucking crown. The emotional challenges and triggers thrown my way, I had to learn what was truly therapeutic for my soul

I used to model amongst all this. Was on some popular online magazines. I met some cool ass, talented people who work with your favourite cover girls to artists like Demi Rose to Kanye West. One even became my roommate for 5 months, bombshell Eski. I thought I wanted to model when I saw Beth Humphreys on the cover of Front in my young 20’s, she was like Bambi – beautiful and wild. I had an opportunity to work with the best of the best and I took it. It helped me escape what was toxic in my life, it made me feel like a bird in the sky however I would eventually have to land. It wasn’t enough. I even stopped doing it because the toxicity consumed me

So, back to learning what is therapeutic for my soul…I always loved photography, but being behind the camera is what saved me. I love the intricate details that go into it. The shoot is like a party – you go through the party and pick your favourite moments, you reminisce over those celebrated memories and then you share them with everyone. That’s what it’s like to be a photographer and I wanted that feeling. The dominance of having the power to make people feel beautiful in front of the camera. When I was in front of the camera, everyone made me feel beautiful which I thank them. Now that I know I am, in and out, as I am no longer being controlled…I just want to share that feeling to others who need it or who just want to celebrate their lovely art form

Photography has me focused on my future. Photography is my go to. Photography is my spirit where I spread love to all. The negativity has been sucked out of me. It’s all positive vibes round here that can’t be killed

That’s why I’m blessed to be being. A year since I left. I’ve accomplished a lot. My mind is pure, my body is thick, my money is rising and I do what I love. All thanks to my journey and starting over. Trust your wings and be in love with every breath you take

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